The minute I traversed into an alternate world


Daniel Regan self-hurt at auxiliary school, at college and now and again amid his profession as a craftsman. In his latest fine art, he stands up to this individual history.

Daniel sits at a table in the wellbeing focus in Kentish Town, north-west London. The inside has a workmanship space, where he fills in as a caretaker. Wearing splendid red dungarees, the aimless scarring to his left side arm is noticeable from under the sleeve of his striped T-shirt. Talking with a peaceful, watchful assurance, the 33-year-old clarifies that his scars are not something he believes he needs to cover up.


Rather, in Threshold, his most recent craftsmanship venture, he reveals the narratives behind them.

Daniel started to self-hurt at 14 years old. Self-hurt is when individuals deliberately hurt themselves, more often than not to adapt to troublesome or difficult feeling.

It can appear as hitting, consuming or punching, yet for Daniel it was cutting.

When he hurt himself out of the blue, Daniel acknowledged what he was doing wasn’t what a great many people would discover ordinary. “I thought from that minute onwards that I’d traversed into an alternate world,” he says. “I believed that I wouldn’t have the capacity to converse with my companions about this.”

There have been a few periods throughout his life when Daniel hasn’t self-hurt by any stretch of the imagination. In others, he’s hurt himself strongly. He endeavors to accept every day as it seems to be, letting himself know, “You haven’t done it for about fourteen days, so don’t do it now.”


In light of this battle, he sees his conduct as addictive. “The idea gets more grounded and more grounded and more grounded, thus I stall out in this cycle of reacting to the idea, and afterward captivating in it, and afterward being humiliated and embarrassed.”

So when the Science Gallery London put out an open call for craftsmanship to go in an up and coming display about fixation, Daniel recognized what theme he needed to cover. Albeit unique in relation to the customary thought of fixation, for example, liquor and medications, he trusts that self-damage can turn into a propensity. This has been particularly valid for him when he has utilized it as an approach to oversee troublesome feelings.


He understands now that it is additionally a negative and foolish conduct.

The pictures in the display were made by anticipating moving lights on to Daniel’s body. He concentrated on specific regions, the chest and the throat, in view of their powerless area on the body.

Daniel depicts himself as an exceptionally peaceful individual. There is just a single individual he ever gets extremely furious with, and that is himself. By anticipating red light on to his face, he is speaking to the sentiment of wrath he coordinates at himself when he self-hurts.

“Self-hurt is anything but a positive long haul adapting procedure, yet for me it has filled a need,” says Daniel. “I’m mindful it is anything but a positive reason, so I would prefer not to depict it as a positive demonstration since it’s definitely not.”


For Daniel, the longing to hurt himself goes back and forth, and the shining and blurring lights anticipated on his body speak to these evolving feelings.

“It’s an extremely complex subject,” he says.

Making this work is imperative for Daniel for various reasons.


A study of 11,000 14-year-olds by The Children’s Society, discharged toward the finish of August, discovered 22% of young ladies and 9% of young men said they had harmed themselves deliberately in the year before the survey. In view of these figures, the philanthropy gauges around 33,000 young men had self-hurt over a year time span.

Daniel can’t recollect seeing any men who self-hurt sharing their encounters in the media, which implied that growing up he never felt his were legitimately spoken to. Also, from his opportunity spent in gathering treatment, he realizes that other men feel thusly as well.